March 2012
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Stan Brakhage - Black Ice RECON
recons:
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82 (cont'd)
damn it the section on temporal art/exhibitionist cinema isn’t assigned. this means I’ll have to read it extracurricularly during spring break.
as if my head could really fit any more theoretical noise.
February 2012
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82.
“All my happiest ‘childhood memories’ all come back to doing things with you” -Ryan
10 days has passed! From the start of the count! Let’s win this together, everybody, let’s win this together! :)
83.
i can’t sleep.
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84.
I discovered what I was looking for all along,
Babycastles in NYC.
(by the way they call NYC “Gotham” for a reason)
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SALEM - Skullcrush
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blacksound:
Carissa’s Wierd - They’ll Only Miss...
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86 (cont'd).
I googled searched a couple of things, I google searched “Bangladesh Sucks,” “Korea Sucks,” and “Japan Sucks.”
There’s this site that measures the amount of people that hate “x” country,
15% of people hate Bangladesh,
11% of people hate Korea,
7% of people hate Japan,
But the search results yield different things,
for Korea, there are...
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The National - Brainy
86.
list of things to look forward to in NYC:
the comme des garcons store, Patricia Field store, AllSaints store, UNIQLO, and many many other brands.
Oddities/Antiques stores, that “Evolution” store, I can buy skulls and such.
Alphabet City, The Lower East Side, The Village, Union Square and beyond (Chelsea is cool too).
RockStar Games, Marvel Comics, Frederator Studios, MTV Networks,...
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The Cure - To Wish Impossible Things
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Lullatone - Pajama Party Pop
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Bloc Party - Always New Depths
89.
catch up.
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Interpol - Obstacle 2
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Anonymous asked: Ah shit, you didn't get the first part of that message?
Anonymous asked: *Most important role, you get pretty neat body too if you stick at it. I'm not the best at putting my head words into irl words but I thought I'd share. Stay safe man.
okay, i couldn't sleep...
PLEASE someone help!
the thoughts of suicide/plans and everything are returning again.
I want to at least finish college first,
but I don’t trust myself from not doing something stupid by the end of this week.
like legitimately am scared.
I do not like suicide hotlines or psychologists, or psychiatrists, they don’t treat me personally.
PLEASE anybody. I know this is a heavy...
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blacksound:
Probable Reasons Why You Never Have a Girlfriend.
(The list is arranged in such a way to make me feel more and more despised about myself as I read down to the last number.)
Too busy. I’m too busy in my job and, previously about 4 years ago, in my academic activities that I forgot all about love and getting a girlfriend. It’s a very good excuse to play in your brain again and...
I spent the night,
blacksound:
thinking about love, relationships, and stuff.
or rather how much I hate myself when it comes to such things,
such as, the reason why I’m always single is because even if I have the slightest crush on girls I just eye-fuck (take stupid shy glances) at them to the point where it’s absurd.
and my tongue becomes nothing, and sputters stupid vowels that aren’t even words.
or the fact...
I just want to watch old Godzilla movies.
i can't calm myself into sleep.
and i have to drive tomorrow.
I still sometimes think about the girl who said...
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Anonymous asked: hi i think you're pretty cool and also i like how you write and i don't know if that helps with anything at all but i thought maybe i could tell you just in case it does
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blacksound:
Attic Abasement - A Werewolf
if you...
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had a dream,
blacksound:
there were two of me, one OLDER me talking to me now, saying,
“This is the last summer of your youth, go take advantage of it!”
then I realize I work four days a week, and summer is half way through,
and I realize,
this is it.
i am going to die.
Anonymous asked: I love your blog. =]
seeingred asked: I suppose since you asked for compliments, that is what I should be giving you but I don't know what to compliment you on. Your bravery at being so willing to want to stop feeling suicidal and your ability to actually seek help is something I admire. As well as the pictures you post, they're fantastic and you have a great blog. This makes me feel like I"m sucking up though. haha. I...
seeingred asked: Hello. My name's Jess, I dunno what I could do to be of some help, but I'll try. First, if you want to just talk to me, you are welcome to. My inbox is open. Second, sleep is a god. It helps temporarily stop the bad thoughts. I would recommend watching Archie's Final Project. Not because I think it'll change anything for you, maybe it will, but it's a good movie, I think...
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Anonymous asked: what would your perfect girl be...
blacksound:
because conceptualizing people are dangerous, and I feel like I’ve done this answer once again, I’ll answer this once more, and then make tags, so I can refer to this again, whenever,
willing to play co-op video games with me
willing to introduce me to new things (that aren’t drugs or alcohol), new arts, hold my hand for a roller coaster ride, and try not to laugh too hard about...
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Anonymous asked: would you mind sharing your first...
blacksound:
I guess Ariel was my first actual romantic experience, otherwise I only know rejections,
we didn’t date, we never saw each other,
I got her to play Gunbound, because it was the only way to keep contact with each other due to our strict parents,
She kissed me on the cheek, I kissed her on the cheek, we’d hug every day after school,
She said, “Yes” the next day after a “maybe,”
I...
i know it's late.
and no one will probably see this.
because it’s 5:22 AM here.
but if you didn’t give me compliments anonymously.
and i dont know.
anything helps.
because
the thoughts of suicide are really coming back.
really strong.
really strong.
unrequited love.
i guess this is just part of my character.
keep fighting.
KEEP FITHGINF
I AM AT MY WITS’ END.
oh my God.
KEEP FIGHTING. KEEP FIGHTING
DOES NO ONE.
see.
HOW LONG I FOUGHT.
KEEP FIGHTING.
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Anonymous asked: you don't know how lovely you are. <3
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absolutes.
there are words.
there are thoughts.
there are absolutes.
to describe exactly how sad and hopeless i feel.
i felt like mapping out and describing each and every minute detail.
but/
if i had a strong character flaw.
it’s that i’m grossly impatient.
if i had a failing.
it’d be the fact that I’m a lousy gambler,
that go for “All-Or-Nothing” deals,
and my...
